I have not blogged in forever!! I have to be honest and state here that my husband found me out and followed my blog. It worried me and made me withdraw to avoid conflict. I am really good at doing that. I am a very passive aggressive person. But, who cares anymore? I loved writing my blogs,… Continue reading Still Standing
I have not faded away. I just didn’t know what to say anymore. I needed to refocus my life and my directions. This comes with silence. My last post was about setting fire to my pain and setting myself free. That still stands and I have been doing well. I feel stronger than I have… Continue reading Breaking the Silence
Moments from finding out my husband had cheated on me, we clung to each other. It was an act of survival for both of us. Neither of us knowing what to do. We held on to one another as if our lives depended on it. Which is actually the truth. Life as we knew it… Continue reading Setting Fire
I recently spoke to a woman that gave her husband her kidney. WOW! To go through that is amazing. A true act of love and luck that your own spouse is a match. I am guessing he never cheated on her. Please excuse the sarcasm. I immediately texted my husband this story. His response was… Continue reading Anything For you…
When does the healing really begin? Days, weeks, months, years after a betrayal of a spouse? I realize it is a process. It’s grueling at times and overwhelming. I have realized recently that I am living my life in a vicious circle of uncertainty, hope, despair, love. A rollercoaster of emotions that does not stop.… Continue reading Rollercoasters
Yesterday I wrote a post feeling as worn down as a piece of gum on the bottom of a shoe that has been stepped on over and over again. I wrote it feeling emotionally out of control and I had to vent. I had a trigger that caused a downward spiral. I was not strong enough… Continue reading Breakdowns
This week has been a harsh slap in the face. Back to reality. We had 2 wonderful weeks off from work and things were great between us. Now back to work, the wedge between us has returned. Him being at work is a huge trigger for me. The OW works there! I just can’t get… Continue reading See Ya!